Wondering where I've been? Here and there. Up and down. Back and forth. You know that scene in "Parenthood" where Mary Steenburgen talks about life as a rollercoaster? You've just got to let go and enjoy the ride.
Last week was happy/stressful, waiting for the arrival of my beautiful new niece. My family is 1000 miles away, but I was just as nervous/excited as if I were there. Thankfully everything turned out well. Also last week, the girls went to a day camp every day to learn about different historical girls in America. They really learned a lot and loved it, and I was able to focus on work. That was good.
I also spent a lot of time getting ready for school. We've been through all the girls' clothes, including school clothes and I have a list of exactly what they need. I scooped up some polo shirts on sale online, and I also ordered backpacks and lunchboxes from Lands' End and LL Bean. And I've been shopping Walgreen's to get great deals on school supplies. Nearly done with that list. I also ordered a new leotard for Margret. Both girls are going back to ballet this fall. Still need ballet shoes for M and athletic shoes for A.
John and I primed and painted our entryway and hallway last week. Brown and khaki have been replaced with ivory. The trim still needs attention, but we're going to paint some other rooms first. As soon as I can figure out a good time.
Monday was the beginning of a weirdly stressful time. I was called for county jury duty and needed to report downtown by 8:30. I had arranged for the girls to go to different friends' houses each day, with John dropping them off. And I packed a briefcase with things to read and work on.
On the first day, I got called in a group that was being seated for a grand jury. That's a once-a-week commitment for nine weeks. Gah! I never made it up to the jury box, though. I also got called for a sequestered first degree murder trial. Again, I never made it to the box. Later I learned that that group, who went home that evening to pack, came in the next day to learn that the defendant pleaded to a lesser charge. They were dismissed!
Tuesday morning was quiet. I was able to work on some marketing ideas and copy, and I walked to the post office during the lunch hour. That afternoon, I was in group that walked over to the courthouse in a torrential downpour. In just a few minutes we were soaked. The jury selection dragged on for three hours, and we all remained wet and angry. Finally the jury was picked (not me) and we were released. The good news is that us leftovers were dismissed for the week, much to our great relief. No more jury duty for at least ten years.
John picked up the girls and met me at home, where we all needed to change wet clothes before heading over to a friend's for dinner. It was a great, happy evening, until Audrey's major meltdown upon leaving. So stressful.
I was happy to lounge about Wednesday morning, instead of rushing downtown. But something about the days before had taken their toll. It took all morning to take a shower and get the girls bathed. And I tried to focus on getting some work done, but I noticed my girls were quite demanding of my time. Perhaps the effect of me being gone for two long days?
Anyhoo. Another friend asked for the girls to come over in the afternoon and stay for dinner. I agreed. John and I went out to dinner and talked to each other with no interruptions. Very restorative.
This morning I feel rested and ready to get back on track. I feel like a wimp for saying this, but I do think my court experiences, as peripheral as they were, had an effect on me. Listening to details about two very serious crimes, with the accused sitting mere feet away from me was unsettling. When we had dinner at our friends' on Tuesday, Audrey jumped up and accidentally cracked her head against my chin. It hurt a lot, and it was nearly impossible not to cry about it. But I realized that if I started crying, I wouldn't have been able to stop! I truly think the tears would have been a release; it just wasn't the right time.
So back to today. I think I'm over it all and ready to start the climb up again. This rollercoaster I'm on doesn't seem to stop for much. Let's see what today brings.